Thursday, September 8, 2011

30 weeks 1 day today :)

Hi everyone sorry I haven't updated in forever we have been very busy getting everything ready and together for Mr Zayne to arrive :) The Dr isn't letting me go past Nov 9th because He's in the 95th percentile and such a chunk.... My Dr said we will be having a c-section because of his size and he would be worried about shoulder dystochia where just his head would deliver and we don't want that.... So with that being said I'm very nervous about the c-section i know mothers go through them everyday but I'm still nervous.. as long as he's fine i know I can get through it though :) We go in on Sept 13th for a growth scan to see how big he is now at 22 weeks he was already a pound and a half so I can only imagine what he is now hehehe our Lil chunker.. So after this appointment we will know a Lil more on how big of a baby we are looking at having lol I will keep you all updated on that.. OMGOSH!! We're getting so excited for his arrival i just can't even put it in words :)  I'm posting some pictures of our past few ultrasounds it's so amazing how he's grown and you can see all his Lil features too oh so cute :)

30 weeks at the zooo

Zayne 22 weeks

24 weeks

28 weeks

Zayne 29 weeks

Zayne 28 weeks 3D

Zayne 28 Weeks 3D

Zayne 29 weeks fist pumping lol

Zayen 29 weeks 3D

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Quick Update :)

We are Having a Baby Boy :) we found out at 15 weeks 2 days we're so excited! His name is Zayne Noah. They have me scheduled to be induced at 39 weeks which is Nov 9th unless he decides to come sooner :) I'm a little over 21 weeks now and loving every moment of it. I feel Mr Zayne moving all around it's such an amazing feeling and we thank God everyday for letting us have this precious baby growing inside me :) I will upload some pics as soon as I get my computer up and running again sorry for the delay. We are having our baby shower July 17th so excited about that! For now we're just waiting for Mr Zayne to make his grand appearance :)
15 weeks when we found out :)

29 week boy parts :)

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Much needed Update!!!!

Sorry it has been forever since an update.... so not nice of me just been really busy... but that's still no excuse :)  Anyway so I have had several ultrasounds since the last update and I will be posting lots of pics :) Our last ultrasound was was May 2nd and 4th as I seen both of my Drs that's why there were 2.. The heart rates so far have been 174/171/170/170/160/153 So I'm thinking they are staying pretty high.. We are hoping to find out what we are having on June 1st fingers crossed :) We can't wait!! We go in May 17th to meet with Dr Wong at Providence he will be my OB there and the one delivering me so we're excited to meet him.. We have truly been blessed with such wonderful Drs from NAS OH and Providence we're so so thankful for them! May 2nd we had our first set of blood work and scan for the Down Syndrome test when we go in June 1st we will have our 2nd blood draw then we will just wait to here back with the results. We figured we would go ahead and elect to do the test cause after all Tricare pays for it and we got another u/s :) Either way it's our baby! Also I have been measuring almost a week ahead the whole time so that's exciting too :) Today I'm officially 13 weeks although measuring around 14 we're so thankful! Here's some pics from all the ultrasounds we have had some are good some are blurry.. I will try to keep my blog updated a little better for ya'll :) And as always we really appreciate every ones prayers for us through our journey we're so thankful for such wonderful friends and family!!

Sunday, April 10, 2011

3rd ultrasound

Sorry I haven't updated my blog in a while.. Michael and I went in for our 3rd ultrasound on April 5th I'm measuring 2 days ahead and the babies heart beat was 171 we saw and heard it.. It was so great.. I  was 7 weeks 6 days but measured 8 weeks 1 day.. Dr said that's good and everything looked great and he was happy with the progress :) I will post a couple pics of the ultrasound on here.. We have another ultrasound on April 20th I will be 10 weeks that day we're so excited can't wait to see our precious baby again :) I have started back walking again because I have to stay active I'm working my way back up so pray for me and my walking lol I will update you guys on my next appointment on the 20th take care :)

Friday, March 25, 2011

2nd Ultrasound today

We had our 2nd ultrasound today :) Dr said everything looked good and I was actually measuring a day ahead and making good progress... We even saw a little flutter that was our favorite part :).. I'm really tired tonight and have a horrible headache so I will upload the ultrasound pic tomorrow it's not the greatest but hopefully a better one next time.. Our next appointment will be April 5th I will then be right at 8 weeks..

Thursday, March 17, 2011

First Ultrasound 5 weeks 3/16/2011

So we went in for our first ultrasound yesterday at 2pm.. We couldn't see much but hoping next Friday the 25th when we go back in for another we see more... The Dr said that's normal i guess for 5 weeks so we will see... We saw one sac but still don't know how many lil beans are in there... from one of the ultrasound pics i will post it looks like 2 but Dr said next week should be able to tell a little better.. He said they would be identical if so..So that's exciting but we will be happy either way one or two :)

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

Went in for Blood work today....

So I went in to get my HCG blood work done this morning now just waiting to hear my results..Fingers crossed they are high enough for ultrasound 2,000 plus :) Friday they were 743 so we will see.. I will update this as soon as I hear from them.. Just checked and they're still pending.. OK so The results are in I'm 4 weeks 6 days and my levels went from 743 on Friday to 3,905 today (Tuesday) they said that's great and we have our first ultrasound tomorrow at 2pm.. We're praying all goes and looks well :) very excited but nervous..I will update you all on the ultrasound and post pics soon..

Friday, March 11, 2011

Update On Today!!

So I went in for my blood work today and then waited around to hear the news.. Finally around 2pm we found out... i went from 295 on Wednesday to 743 today so in less than 48 hours it went up great :) We're very excited and pray all works out and we have our sweet lil baby in eight more months...So now we are just waiting til I reach 2,000 or around that for our first ultrasound.. I will keep everyone up to date on the progress and will be able to post pictures soon hopefully....whenever I get my computer back from best buys service center.. I'm ready to hurt them they have had it over a month anyway can't wait to post pics of our journey through pregnancy :)


So Wednesday I went in to have my HCG levels checked again they came back at 295 which is good Monday it was 114.... I also found out what my progesterone was when it was taken.. it was 130.7 My Dr said that's one of the highest he's seen this early on in pregnancy.... At that time I was 3 weeks.... not too sure what that means but I'm happy with the numbers and pray they keep going up.... I go in today and get another level check so I will update everyone when I get the results... should get my Hcg results back today but progesterone will take 3 or so days...

Monday, March 7, 2011

Blood work Today...

Hi everyone.. So I went in for another HCG count today.. The one on Friday was 14 and that was day 9 since my IUI (Insemination) today (Monday) it was 114 so it has went up way more than the thought it would have.. So we're happy about that.. They want me to come back in on Friday for another one and then from there Dr. S said he would decide when he wanted to do my first ultrasound.. We're so excited but I'm nervous at the same time... It's in Gods hands though and what he wants will be... So I will update you guys with my results on Friday they should be way up there by then... As far as how I'm feeling I'm very very tired but having trouble sleeping at night I'm also peeing a lot and having some nausea. lower back pain on and off and cramping on and off.. I ask about all that and they said that's pretty normal so we will see how it all goes....Thanks everyone again for all the prayers so far we're so grateful  :) My computers broke right now so when we get it back I will post some pics on here..

Friday, March 4, 2011

HUGE Update.....

Wow!! So I woke up this morning and went in for my pregnancy blood test.. I went in knowing I wasn't pregnant because I didn't want to get my hopes up like I usually do and I had no signs. Well I've been eating like a cow for the last 4 days lets just put it this way I have ate 2 whole chickens lol Guess I'm getting my protein in. So anyways I took my blood test around 10am talked to my bff all day and waited around for the results. It was around 4:30pm and I got a phone call from my Drs. nurse she was asking me how my day was going she asked me this while I'm making a cake for 200 people so my answer was its crazy this fondant is not listening to me. She then said would it make you feel any better if I told you that you were pregnant.. I was like NO WAY.....ARE YOU FREAKING SERIOUS.... lol she laughed and said yes... I said are you sure you're looking at the right results? lol she said yes Amber i am and your social is right here beside it lol I said wow ok lol I'm in shock sooooooooooo happy. So we have a BFP please keep praying for us through this journey :) We are so so Happy I cant even describe it :) Thanks again and I will keep you guys updated!!

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Update on 2nd IUI....

Wow so today started off crazy lol ... I had a Dr's appointment for 8:45am for my 2nd IUI.... however we woke up to 6 inches of snow here making it impossible to go anywhere safe.... Hubby had to be in at 6:30am and was going to meet me at the hospital for the procedure... He got to work and then the base decided to shut down of course.. What great planning NAS Whidbey Island has huh....Anyway so he's on duty today and has to go in for watch 3-midnight no matter how the weather is... So we call my Dr and find out he's there so he said to come on in... So Michael ventured back to the house to get me and take my car which does better in the snow.. It took him over an hour to get home which normally only takes him 15 minutes...His truck was sliding and spinning everywhere ... So glad he made it home safe thanks to a helpful fellow sailor with a 350 pulling Michael's Silverado up a hill he fish tailed on... He got here we got in my car and off we went to the hospital.. Wow it was interesting drive i will say lol spinning and sliding no control at all is very scary....Thankfully we slid into the hospital parking lot and got there safe... Dr. S was laughing we said if we get pregnant this time this will be our snow baby lol and very memorable.... Michael got to play nurse today as well so hes was happy assisting my Dr lol I wish I could have recorded it too funny....My Dr was showing him each step and having him hold the instruments used lol.. So praying this one takes cause this IUI is definitely one we will never forget :) I will be going in on March 4th to have a blood pregnancy test and progesterone check so fingers crossed it will be positive.... I will keep everyone updated on the progress... I have been having some cramping since the procedure it was really bad yesterday but today not so bad and tenderness as well... Dr said that was a good sign :)

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Another round of IUI

So this morning i got a peak ( meaning I'm ovulating or about too) so we went in to have our IUI done.....We are doing two IUI's again this time and the Dr had me take 100mg of clomid this time......So tomorrow we go in for our other one about 8:45am....My Dr said everything looked great and the timing was perfect.....So now we are just playing the 2 week waiting game again....We are praying this one takes.... My Dr said if this one does not take he's sending us to Maddagan which is a big Army hospital hours away.....We will then talk about IVF or any other possible options available....After tomorrow we will just wait and see what happens and i will update you guys throughout the process....This makes our 4th IUI since we lost our sweet baby...This month has been very hard on us because this is when we would have been having our sweet little one... Everything happens for a reason though even though at the time it don't seem like it at all.... So we just got to stay strong and keep our heads up..... We miss you sweet baby "Z"

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Feeling a little better..Still in pain though..Updates!

Just wanted to update you all.. So I went to urgent care my now 2nd home the other night after having the same episodes of not being able to breathe well my left arm hurting my upper back and chest in so much pain...... I was crying and the back of my head was just numb..... After being there for a couple hours the Dr tells me this time oh it's severe anxiety.... He tells Michael her anxiety level is so high right now is she under a lot of stress? LOL I just looked at him and laughed....Then he really thought i was crazy lol... He told me he was going to give me something for my anxiety so he gave me a shot of advant (not sure if sp is correct)...We waited for 30 minutes he came back in and was like how do you feel? Well at that point I just felt really loopy but relaxed.....However I was still in pain which is why I came in.. So he then says we're going to give you something really strong for your pain and I said OK I just pray it takes it away... He turned to Michael and said you will prolly have to carry her out of here... I looked at him and laughed again I said you actually think he can carry me lol at that point i felt so freaking high I prolly should have just shut up so that's what i did lol When I left there I wasn't feeling any pain and he put me on xanex for the anxiety.. I'm still feeling the pain though so I know it's not all anxiety so we're just waiting for Feb 21st to go to the pulmonary specialist and to get my referral approved for my MRI for my spine neck and shoulder... So I will keep you all up to date on that as we hear more....

OK so as far as trying for baby yes we will be having 2 IUI's again this month 24th and 25th should be the dates we will see as we get closer.... I talked to my High Risk OB and he said there's no reason we can't try and being on the xanex short term will not hurt me while trying to conceive.... He did bump me up to 100 mg of clomid this time so more of chance for multiples but a better chance for a baby :) We will see.. Today was my 2nd day of clomid I have 3 more days of taking it then we just wait for my LH surge (Peak)....It's in Gods hands and whats meant to be will be but like I said before we will never give up :)

Also some of you all know that while we are continuing to try for a sweet little baby we're also looking into adoption... I'm calling the lady back on Monday and seeing what all we need to do to get the ball rolling... I know we will be on the bottom of the list but hey you got to start somewhere :).. I will be updating you all on this process too... Until next time love you all!

Monday, February 7, 2011


So I have been in the ER the last 2 nights since i was diagnosed with Pneumonia in Urgent Care Friday night...My upper back, chest and left arm are killing me and I feel like I cant breath it's horrible..... Most of these symptoms have been going on for over 3 months now and no one can figure it out but lately they have got much worse.....Anyway I went in today and the DR says I don't have Pneumonia so I can stop my antibiotics....I'm like OK so how is it one day I have it one day I don't he had no answer all he said was urgent care was treating it that way cause that's what it sounded like to them.....I don't get it though cause they told us it showed up on my chest xray in my left lung.....I'm so done with this Navy Base Hospital or I should say all Hospitals on this Island they have no answers I just don't get it. So after my husband and I talked the heads off of them they decided to send me off Island to a Pulmonary specialist and to have another MRI done as well....... Hopefully we will know something soon :) I will keep you all up to date....Waiting to hear back from my OB doctor as well to ask him more about my clomid dosage as I will be starting it soon for this cycle....

Friday, February 4, 2011

What a Day...

Well today we went in for blood work and got our test results back at 4pm they were negative. Trying to be strong but will say it was a very sad day for both of us. We went in with a good attitude though and an open mind guess we just didn't want to hear the news we got. Oh well we know it's going to happen for us one day though .. and for those of you all who keep saying don't give up we will "Never" give up! Pregnancy is trial and error every time you try there's a 1 in 5 chance it will happen. We will be going back in again at the end of this month as long as all goes well.

Some of you know I haven't been feeling good for some time now well I just left the emergency room and I have pneumonia I have been having these symptoms for almost 4 months now in and out of Dr's office on base and off. The Dr's kept saying it must be anxiety or something I bet I had it the whole time. I feel so bad with that said I'm off to bed... they gave me an antibiotic called Leviquin i sure hope it works i want to feel better so bad.

I will be updating more on our blog as we go along thanks for reading.

~~~~~~Magic is believing in yourself, if you can do that, you can make anything happen~~~~~~~~

~~~~~~"Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but in rising up every time we fail".~~~~~~~

Thursday, February 3, 2011


Tomorrow is our big day.. Fingers,toes,arms,legs and eyes are crossed for a positive pregnancy test. We will know something by 4pm maybe sooner. We're going in tomorrow prepared for the worst but hoping for the best. God please give us our miracle :)

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

This month we would have delivered our sweet baby.. We miss and love you Baby "Z"

      “We wonder”…
We wonder who you were?
We wonder what your personality would have been like?
I wonder if you would have looked like me?
We wonder alot of things…
like why? and WHEN?
But there are some things I don’t wonder…because I know.
Like how much we already loved you.
I don’t doubt God, not at all.
We just wonder how it would have felt to hold you in our arms…
but it’s okay because now we know you're in the arms of Someone who
loved you even more.
Life is so short, yours had just begun, not out of the womb yet
but you were already a “someone”.
I know God is my strength right now because
without Him I just couldn’t go on.
But now I’ll take life…new life, at the time of conception-
not for granted!
It’s all a true miracle that only God deciedes.
Thank You God for creating a little miracle inside me
and even though it’s time was very short…
it was our little miracle nonetheless.

Monday, January 31, 2011

6 days post IUI... Just a question!

So today I'm 6 days post IUI.....I'm trying to stay positive however it's so very hard. Since my IUIs on Jan 25th and 26th I have been having minor cramps here and there twinge like feelings and sharp pains that come and go.... where i believe my ovaries are in my bikini area....... I ask my Dr about them when I went in on the 26th and he said that was a good sign so positive thoughts positive thoughts...If you are reading my blog and have been pregnant before and found out early on you were pregnant could you let me know if these pains sound familiar? I remember when we lost our sweet baby when I was pregnant early on i felt pulling and twinges this time these are a little different...... I also take 50 mg of clomid days 3-7 of my cycle so I'm wondering if they could be from that..... I would love to hear from anyone that has experienced anything early on like i stated above and had a BFP (Big fat Positive) pregnancy test .... Thanks in advance....

Friday, January 28, 2011

Acupuncture Today....

So today I went in for Acupuncture.. It went great!!! I had a ton of needles all over my body including my head. I know ouch right? Nope didn't hurt at all.....I was even told I was a great patient :) She also did the cupping  procedure on my shoulder and back again.......I'm in a little pain tonight but guess that just means it's working.... I will post some pictures of the marks I have after this procedure for a couple days which is normal...The pictures are not that great but you can get the idea.... I have 7 more days til I go in for my blood test to see if I'm preggo...... This feels like the longest 7 days ever lol..... I have been having some cramping and what feels like I have been bruised in my pelvic area and a few sharp pains on and off... When I asked my Dr he said that was all good signs :) If that's the case I need to take the pain and love it lol..Tomorrow (1/29) is 4 days past my IUI...... I'm having lots of  thick discharge kind of yellow/white I asked my acupuncturist today about that and she said that's good so hopefully with all the "Good" things that are happening we will have a Big Fat Positive test result :)
Here are some pictures from today...

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

Round 2 this morning :)

Hi everyone... So we went in for round 2 this morning...Again the Dr said everything went perfect yayyy! Also I had some cramping and pains in my ovaries yesterday after procedure when I went home.. I told my Dr about them and he said that was a good sign :) So now we just play the 2 week waiting game...Well almost 2 weeks he has me coming in on Feb 4th or 5th whichever is better for me to have a blood pregnancy test done and some other lab work checking my progesterone levels and other things... Hoping and praying all goes well and we will have a BFP (Big Fat Positive)...I go in Jan 28th for another acupuncture session i can't wait.. I feel so much better when I leave that place it's amazing....Hubby took some more pics this morning at the Dr's office lol I will post them for you all to see...Well for now we just hope and pray everything works out and if not we will try again but I just have a feeling this ones going to work..... Gotta stay positive right :)...I talked to my grandmother yesterday after my procedure and she says "Amber I just know it this one is it..... you're pregnant" :) She always keeps my hopes up and keeps me in good spirits.... I just love her so much....As many of you know my grandmother raised me so she's pretty much my mom... I truly don't know what I would do with out her and my grandfather they're my world... Well for now we are just waiting....come on Feb 5th get here already lol


Tuesday, January 25, 2011

IUI #1Today!!..... #2 tomorrow

So this morning I woke up at 8:00am to pee on my stick for my monitor and yayyyy we got a peak!! We immediately called my Dr. he got us in first thing at 8:45am. After getting set up and everything i was officially inseminated at 9am. I go back in the morning for round 2..... We decided to do 2 this time that way all hours of ovulation would be covered and it will hopefully give us positive results :) My Dr said the procedure went GREAT! and he thought this was the best one out of all 5 other IUIs he had preformed on me..... So fingers and toes crossed this one or the one tomorrow takes.....I have been laying around napping on and off all day since I got home..... just been really tired...... I have also had a little cramping but that's normal for IUI. The hubby took a few pics before the procedure that I will post lol Warning I do look rough remember this is out of bed straight to the Dr lol... We will be at the Dr at 7:45am in the morning for round 2 very early but so worth it..... I will update you guys on that one tomorrow until then keep those prayers coming.... We appreciate everything and are so thankful for such great friends,family and blog followers that are in our life :) Remember I'm always here if anyone wants to talk, has questions or just wants to comment...

Monday, January 24, 2011

Not Today....

So today was supposed to be one of my IUI days, however i did not get a peak today. With me taking the small dose of Clomid (50mg) I'm thinking it just has me a little off. So fingers crossed I will peak tomorrow...So as of now our two days for IUI look like they will be 25th and 26th I will keep you guys updated...

Update since Acupuncture....Wow I feel so much better I know that sounds crazy after one session but it's so true! The only thing I do have are these 6 small fading suction marks on my back from the cupping procedure..So worth it though.... cause it felt so good lol My next appointment is scheduled for Jan 28th but being I'm pushed a little back for my two IUI procedures I may have to bump it back a little cause she said she didn't want it to interfere with them......I gave her a call and just waiting to hear back from her now so we will see what she wants to do.

Oh yeah.... If I get pregnant this time my Due date will be on or around Oct 18th :)

Friday, January 21, 2011

Day one of Acupuncture !!

So today was my first time ever doing Acupuncture.... Wow!! As many of you know I wanted to start doing this as I heard it helps a lot when trying to conceive..... I have heard many success stories from it as well... I saw a lady in Oak Harbor, WA named Susan Frosolone she is amazing and best of all fertility is her main study.... She told  me out of all her fertility patients only one person has been unable to conceive. That made me feel really good :) The session was great I felt so relaxed even though I had needles all over my body (I will post pics of a few I had her take lol).......I will say though before my appointment i was very nervous thinking of the needles but once I walked in and started talking to her all my fear went away......... She worked on my spleen and uterus today and pain in my upper back and shoulders......She also did another method she called "cupping" it felt so good.. it smelled like when you blow out a candle and it felt like small glass containers and they made a sucking noise and she then put 6 of them on my back.. It felt so good and warm too...

  We go in Jan 23/24 OR Jan24/25 for my IUI depending on when i peak so she wants me to come back in for another acupuncture session Jan 28th.... I will let you guys know how that goes and we will find out Feb 4th or 5th if We are pregnant :) And you guys will of course know that either way lol...That almost 2 week wait period is so hard I wish you could just find out the next day through blood hahaha!

Ok so I'm going to try and upload some pictures on here we will see how that goes... Just wanted you all to see.. The pictures were taken on my cell phone so may not be that great but you will get the idea....Until next time take care and I will be posting more soon after insemination day yayyy :)

Friday, January 14, 2011

Decided to do Acupuncture this IUI :)

So I have decided to do Acupuncture this IUI cycle. I'm really excited about this! I go in on Jan 21st at 3pm wish me luck. I decided to do this after reading up on it and hearing peoples success stories of having it done while going through fertility. Beings that the fertility issue is on the husbands side it will still be beneficial for me as well the Dr said. She said it would relax me and prepare my body to hopefully conceive :) The acupuncturist i chose is highly recommended in the area i need. She has traveled all over studying and this her specialty "Fertility acupuncture". With that said I 'm going into this with great hope. *finger crossed* for a bundle of joy :)

As many of you  know I was diagnosed with Diabetes when i was 21. I developed it later in life and it's been a struggle. Having diabetes makes me a high risk pregnancy so the acupuncturist i spoke with said it will help with that as well so I'm really looking forward to this :) I do have my sugars under control so I don't see it being an issue when I do get pregnant. During my last pregnancy my sugars were actually staying too low so that will be something I have to watch but all else was well.

Thanks for reading and I would love feedback from people... If you have anything to tell me that would help through the journey....experiences you have had..... or if you just have questions or want to talk I'm here :)... talk to you soon....

Wednesday, January 12, 2011

Just got a call from the Nurse.....

So I just got a call from the nurse on my lab work that came back. She said everything looked great and my progesterone level was at a 20.8 (meaning I ovulated well last cycle). So now we just wait til my monitor gets a peak then go in for our IUI which should be Jan 24th/25th . I will keep you guys updated on the progress.

January 12, 2011 Starting Clomid

So today is my 3rd day of my cycle my Dr has told me to take 50mg of Clomid days 3-7 this will help boost the IUI as well as making me drop more eggs during ovulation. Then hopefully resulting in a little one or two :) Just wanted to give you a quick update. Hope everyone is doing well.


Our Journey since the loss of our sweet baby..... RIP love.... Mommy and Daddy love you!!

As many of you know I'm a baker/Cook (Ambi-Cakes)  and Crafty (Dreamy Diva Creations) you can find me on Facebook. I bake all the time and I love it so I said what a great way to raise money for our fertility treatments. So since we started our first IUI this is what I have been doing to raise the money. It's amazing at all the people who have bought and helped us we thank them so very much from the bottom of our hearts. It would not be possible with out them.

Since our loss on August 16th, 2010 We have had two IUI procedures done. So far neither of them have taken. If all goes well we are looking at January 24th and 25th for our next IUI procedures. Yep I said procedures we are going to have 2 done this cycle hoping it will boost it up a little :) So fingers crossed all goes well and we will have good news for everyone. If any one has comments or questions don't hesitate to ask it actually helps me to talk about all this and I feel that I can be of help to someone else that may be going through the same problems because I truly understand where you're coming from.

A little Recap for those of you just joining

So it was four years ago when my husband Michael and I started trying to have a little one.  In 2008 I got pregnant 2 months after he got back from a 15 month deployment with the Navy. We found out I was pregnant and were the happiest people alive. I ran out of the bathroom screaming OMG!!! WE ARE PREGNANT BABY!! He was like no way and from there we went to the Dr and it was confirmed I was. When we went in for my first ultrasound we knew something wasn't right by the face the Dr. She looked up and said it looks like you have a blighted ovum (Where the baby never develops and eventually aborts itself). We were so so sad i was about 6 1/2 weeks along. From there we never gave up and new I could get pregnant which was something we were questioning before. We then got orders to Whidbey Island, Washington where we now live.  We were here a couple months when i made a Dr appointment to go in for my yearly exam. When I went in for my exam I asked the Dr many questions and he mentioned has your husband ever been tested for infertility and I said no because I have got pregnant before but it ended in a blighted ovum. He then went on and explained what causes that sometimes. After talking with him we scheduled an appointment for the hubby he went in and had several test done and come to find out he was diagnosed with Klinefelter's Syndrome (Where the male has XXY chromosomes instead of XY). Which explains the reason of us not getting pregnant but that one time in 3 years. With that being said we have been on our journey of fertility treatments. I had two IUI ( Where they insert the semen into the uterus) it did not work then on the third one we got a BFP (Big Fat Positive) that was the end of May 2010. We were oh so happy that one it took and two we were going to be parents. Everything was going great I hit 3 month mark and I just knew I was in the clear. We went in on August 14th had an ultrasound saw baby the Dr said wow baby is so active you could see our little angel jumping and kicking around it's heartbeat was 161 and the Dr said that was perfect and everything looked great! We came home and were just stoked at how our little baby was growing and that it was healthy. Then on August 15th I woke up and had a little spotting it scared me so bad beings that I had a miscarriage before. The hubby brought me into the emergency room and the Dr on duty did an ultrasound and said something didn't look right and he had never seen this before. We started crying he said calm down I still see a heart beat and at that time it was 142 and then dropped to 76 and was just going up and down. He talked to another Dr and they said there was really nothing they could do because they were not even sure what was going on  so they sent me home he said just stay in bed and see how you feel if I start spotting more to come back in. It was August 16,2010 by far the worst day of my life I woke up and was not feeling that great and I stood up and water gushed from me I had no idea what was going on. I then started having horrible pains which now I know were contractions. I rushed to the rest room because it felt like I had to go I started screaming I was bleeding so bad and the contractions were getting worse. My husband ran down stairs and got a bowl and put it in the toilet then the next thing I know my baby was there. We called 911 as the baby would not detach and I was losing a lot of blood so we were very concerned. The ambulance got here and it detached I could not look i just couldn't. They got me in the ambulance and I remember them saying I may have to have a blood transfusion from all the blood I lost. I was so scared sad and angry at the same time it's very hard to describe unless you have been there. In the end I did not have to have a transfusion just had to have a DNC to make sure everything was good. The Dr said everything went well and they did some blood work/tests and stuff on me and from the baby to see what may have happened. I went in for my follow up and the Dr said what had happened only happens in about 1% of pregnancies (go figure). My Gestational sac tore off of my Uterine wall then smothering the baby to death. Our little angel was just perfect if this would not have happened I would have been delivering our love the end of Jan early Feb. With all of that being said we have been on an emotional roller coaster some good days some bad. This was by far the hardest thing we have ever been through. I never knew I could  be so strong til being strong was my only choice. We have not given up hope though and will continue our fertility treatments and I will keep you all updated as we go along.